Don't allow yourself to be weighed down by dark feelings. It is natural to feel difficult emotions, but they don't have to overwhelm you completely. Even during dark times, there is lightness and possibility if you know how to see it. In case it wasn't clear: I want you to make things right--I want you to succeed! I'm on your side. If I wasn't on your side, I wouldn't be doing this. So, I'll make it really easy for you. Here is exactly what you need to do:
1. Contact me. You don't need to say everything all at once. Just start the conversation. Remember that I have not seen anything you have done, produced, posted, or made the news with since May 2023.
2. Be truthful. The only thing worse than being hurt is lies. Lies are essentially a way to communicate "I have no respect for you, therefore I don't need to tell you the truth." Objective truth is a tricky concept--I mean subjective truth. That means that you have to tell the truth about what you did, the reasons why, and how you feel. Also, tell me what you have done that is about me in the time since May 2023. If you think I won't like it, warn me. I will appreciate your honesty. And, yes, that is a leap of faith. If you are seriously worried about me selling your story or doing something else out of integrity, consider that if I had those kinds of motives, you would have realised a long time ago. I would have had enough of a story to go public maybe in mid-spring 2022. That is clearly not what I want to do or have ever wanted to do.
3. Apologise with empathy. Every one of you is capable of this. You may still be working on developing empathy and worried that your level is not good enough. If you feel bad about what you did and you want to make things right with me, that's enough. I had always planned to teach you these things directly, but it turned out to be this way which is less effective. You will learn in time. I am still learning myself!
4. Ask me how you can help me, or how you can make things right. It might be tempting to guess what I want, but you may not be able to guess correctly. I know what I want and I would appreciate the opportunity to tell you about it.
That's it for now! Just four things. I can't do it for you. You now need to do it yourself. At the very least, do step one. There is no reason why you can't do that.